It's teasing, flaunting, a mating ritual. It's body language, seduction, flirting, and gestures. It's companionship, courting, social, intimate, kissing, sex, holding hands, not touching, eating, watching, waiting, and always and forever wishing.
It's an endless circle of doors closing and windows opening and soon you don't know which way is up or where you started from to begin with. Your mind gets trapped in a labyrinth where the things that feel so good are the same that bring about the worst. And when you want something so bad you don't care anymore of the consequences, the instant you get it is when you start to rethink your decision.
It's an audition for a partner for life. For LIFE. Whether that be male, female, neither, both, or 15 cats... it's someone to keep you company. It's about self-gratification and trial relationships. It's nothing serious that can turn into something way too serious. It's about finding faults in everyone else and hiding the ones in yourself.
But yet, it's about finding yourself. About finding what you like or what you don't like. It's about interaction and feeling wanted. It's about going farther in debt and taking time away from everyone else, but it's also about finding happiness and a steady path in life.
I believe things happen for a reason; if someone loves you enough, even if you hurt them, they will continue loving you; and that life must be lived. So for whatever happens in life, let it happen. Leave it be and just be you. You will find your own crowd and your one penguin to dance around with for eternity.
Just give it time. And live.
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