Sunday, February 28, 2010

Songs are secret windows into the tendons that hold our souls together.

Hello. My name is Jessica and I love to watch movies.

I could watch movies all day, every day and never get tired of it. Old movies and new movies. Scary ones and sad ones. Inspirational ones, too. I love them all.

My favorite color is blue - but not just any shade. There's this point between blue and green where the line starts to fade and you get this wondrous mixture of cerulean with a tad bit more blue. Knock the brightness down a bit and there it is! It's so beautiful...

My mom used to sing Barry White to me when I was a child and I would fall asleep at the sound of his voice. Ever since, I have loved the sound of deep and intensive sounds like the cello. When my sister, Erica, was little, I would read to her before her nap times and she would just adore me. There's a picture of me (before I had glasses) in a pink sweater with her leaning on my shoulder while I read to her in bed around midday time. It's one of my favorite pictures in the world and I would jump into a burning house just to find it in order to prevent from losing it. That one picture holds so many memories.

I will never forget the sound a baby makes. Or how it feels when your heart aches and falls apart into a million scattered pieces when a baby takes your one finger in its hand. Ever.

No one believes me, but I named my baby sister: Alex. I told my mother I wanted a brother, but since she had no say in the matter, I'm calling it Alex either way. And so they named her Jade. But we all call her Alex...

Whenever I hear "Close to You," by the Carpenters, it reminds me of Erica. She would fall asleep to that song and would always ask mom to sing it. I loved to hear her sing it, too. Mom is so happy when she sings.

Alex used to fall asleep at the sound of my heartbeat. And to the Goo Goo Dolls, "Iris." Once her head hit my chest, she was OUT. It made me feel so special. She trusted me that much and she barely even knew me. She still calls me her best friend forever.

Mom says the song, "Ain't No Sunshine," by Bill Withers, reminds her of me. She also told me on my 22nd birthday last year that I was the most beautiful baby she's ever seen. I always think of "Over the Rainbow," by Kamakawiwo'ole when I think of her. And I will always think she deserves more than what she has.

I want to learn everything. About cars, about investments, about cultures. And I want to travel everywhere. I want people to respect me when I'm old and I want them to admire me for my full life.

I want to get other people's opinions on everything because I care about what everyone thinks so much.

I believe education is one of the most important things in the world. Along with slurpies. Both of which can cause world peace.

My cats are a part of my family. We get them gifts for Christmas.

I wish I could be there for Erica's prom.

I believe Tom Hanks is one of the greatest actors in the world. Ever seen Forest Gump, The Terminal, Polar Express, or Philadelphia? You should.

I would die for my friends and family in a heartbeat. I would so much rather suffer than to know that they are suffering.

The numbers 6 and 7 are magical.

Everyday that I am alive, I am truly thankful. It is a miracle I am even here right now, so I thank God over every minute detail. Life is quite spectacular.

Hello. My name is Jessica and I love to watch movies.

1 comment:

  1. You could be a movie critic. You could get paid to watch movies all day :)

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